Maysa's Diary

Focus,spirituality,my future...

2010-07-19T16:03:00.001-07:00

Many people ask me how do I seem to be writing strictly for them? How do I seem to be reading their minds? I'm not really. I just go through all the same ups and downs,revelations,mistakes,hopes and dreams like everyone else. I just do it publicly.Sometimes it's not a good idea,because people take my kindness for weakness,or somehow equate my honesty about my feelings with being a weak person. I am truly not weak. I have weathered many storms in my ALWAYS blessed and highly favored life. How can I say that I have been through storms and have been highly favored? It's my faith in GOD. I just keep believing in HIM and I seem to always win no matter what the situation is. There are many things that have yet to manifest in my life. I totally believe in the LAW of ATTRACTION and Deliberate Creating. I do my best to think positive as much as humanly possible. But of course we all face challenges in areas of our lives that cause monumental stress. I talk to GOD ALL DAY LONG. I promised HIM that I would do my best every day HE sends me,to walk by faith and not by sight. I promised HIM that I would from this day forward,promise to focus on getting healthier,raising my son the best I can,take good care of my mom,love and be here for my friends and family,fix my finances and continue to work hard to better my career so that I can retire in 12 years..

One thing that I spoke to GOD about,was that I have given up on love. The one thing that has eluded me my whole life. I mean I have been in love,but I mean the kind that I have written about and hoped for for as long as I can remember. It sounds negative...I know....But it's not really. There have been only a couple disppointments in my life that kinda hurt real bad..1..that my career hasn't taken off the way I had always hoped. But I have to say that I am very Grateful for how far I have gotten. I think I have done a good job in the last 19 years. 2...that I have never found THE ONE! I know I know....Im gonna get all kinds of letters saying I shouldnt give up,I chose the wrong men,GOD hasnt sent him to me yet,just wait,blah blah blah...lol.
I just want to express myself today. I'm DONE with that. I have been hurt so much that I dont have any TRY AGAIN left in my soul.
I wonder how this is going to affect my music,lyrically..I mean I guess I will always write about positive love.
One thing I really want you to know,is that I am still very happy. Even though I havent seen certain things come true in my life YET,I KNOW they will. My career will blossom even more,I will get a GRAMMY NOMINATION,I will get all of my finances straightened out,and I will raise Jazz to be a wonderful human being.(He's already great little boy),I will enjoy my life...go on a real vacation for once( to DUBAI or Monte Carlo),spend more time with my friends,going out to dinner, etc..
I just feel like I have to give up things that continuously hurt me,in order to really experience the true happiness I desire.
I'm at the beginning stages of it now. And it feels like I'm free. Yes I will still flirt and maybe even hang out if I meet someone cool,( I LOVE MEN..esp. ones with muscles..YUM) but I will not allow myself to fall in love ever again. Not interested in the mind games,drama and emotional baggage. Only want to be friends.
I AM NOT BEING NEGATIVE. This is a positive thing. Believe me.

One fun thing that I am focusing on is my 1971 Mach 1 Mustang that I am restoring!!
Its gonna take a while..Im sure its a little expensive,but i really enjoy looking for parts online!! I havent decided whether to restore it just for me and Jazz to drive around in or to the level of trying to take it to that big car auction.

Alright,I'm gonna go take a nap..take it easy everyone. I love you. It's all good!!
MAYSA

2010

2010-01-21T07:47:00.000-08:00

New decade..New goals..New life.
I just want to be happy and will pursue it with all my heart.
Brand new Cd.A Woman in Love,out January 26,2010..I believe this will be my biggest record yet.

LIFE....

2008-10-31T19:19:00.000-07:00

What's up y'all..long time, no diary...
I am sitting in my bedroom trying to memorize these Rufus songs I am singing with them in Japan next week. I am not retaining lyrics like I used to..I guess I'm getting old!
I was just chillin' and I realized something. I don't yearn for,think about,wonder about,or try to figure out my ex-boyfriend anymore. I just realized that I wasted 9 months crying and being depressed,and now I don't feel anything. I mean I hope he's happy,but I don't have that desire or longing in my heart for him anymore,but I'm still a romantic at heart and I can hardly wait for my Prince to show up whoever he is. I will always pray for him,and I will continue to be happy with my life until he comes. It felt like it took forever for me to get over my ex. But thank GOD I'm here! And I am looking for a new love...whooo-hooo!!!

I VOTED FOR OUR NEW PRESIDENT OBAMA!!!
It made me feel so good!!
I had to vote early because I am going to California to rehearse with Rufus.
Isn't that wild?? I am singing with my favorite band from my childhood!! WHAT THE HECK??
I hope they dont expect me to try to sing like Chaka...she is the EVERLASTING QUEEN of JAZZ-FUNK..I'm just trying to help out,and I will be MAYSASIZING the songs I sing...lol
Alright I gotta go back to memorizing....'I'm a woman..and i'm a backbone..!!
See ya!!
Maysa
Oh!! I hope I get back to number one on the Billboard Contemporary Jazz Charts!!(we r number 2 this week) And climb the R&B charts again..this week I fell all the way to 40 but at least Im still TOP 40 on Billboard!!!

Weary...but holding on..faith... knowing...

2008-03-04T19:25:00.000-08:00

Hey y'all..

I'm sitting here in Los Angeles at a hotel,waiting to leave to go to Jakarta tomorrow to sing with Jeff Lorber,Najee and probably Incognito.

My life,for the last month or so has been absolutely crazy.

I mean thank God everyone is still alive and well,God knows I am grateful for that.

But ever since I made my dream board,it seems like a hurricane has entered my world.

I feel like I am seriously in a coccoon,growing,changimg,truly metamorphosizing.

Maybe God put the idea for Metamorphosis so strongly in my spirit because He knew I was going to be in this place at this time.

I talked with Him today. I sat in this room,sometimes in the dark,so I could be open to hear what He is trying to tell me. I meditated,I cried,I slept,and I asked God why was I here alone? Usually I would have my friends with me,my ex-boyfriend would have been with me possibly,but now I am in this room trying to figure out why I feel so sad.These people who would be with me ,we aren't even speaking right now.

I won't get into why,but they hurt me real bad,and I am just moving on.Actually,I'm ok with it. Looking forward to my life which starts every morning when I wake up.

I have some of my best friends here in LA,I have hung out a little with them,but today I could,wouldnt let them see me this way. I wanted to spare them the look on my face that is getting harder and harder to hide.

I am blessed, I know. I have a career that still,after 17 years,has the potential to grow beyond my dreams at any minute.I have been able to take care of my family with my voice. That is huge! How blessed I am. I know that big break I have been waiting for could be around the corner,and I know I have to hang on and believe and have faith.

But I am so tired.

I was dreading the 21 hour flight I have to take tomorrow,but then it came to me..

I am flying to a beautiful tropical paradise. Flying in style,getting PAID,and singimng to people who have survived a horrible tragedy. I am honored to be able to sing to everyone who comes to the festival. I am grateful GOD. 21 hours? Whateva.

I miss my family. Jazz wants me to come back home. But i gotta do this. I am an independent woman. I promised my father I would take over for him as much as I could.

I just want to travel safely and get home.

METAMORPHOSIS.

I am truly changing. The weight loss has been slow. I am told I am not eating enough food. But I dont have an appetite. Today I ate some mixed nuts and salad and some water. Feel a little hungry right now. Gotta get used to eating 5 small meals a day. Jump start my metabolism,time to melt down.

Met someone new. Someone who appreciates my music. Made a connection.Almost magical one. A spiritual one. He's a nice man.

Meeting Jill Scott...

Was great. She gave a fantastic show,and showed me so much love when I went to meet her after. Made me feel great because she showed me genuine love between musical sisters.

Don't get that too much. A lot of jealousy and backstabbing I have experienced.

To my friends who have helped me through the last few months. I love you. To the people who walked out of my life. Thank you. I still love you.

See ya later y'all..

Talk to u from Jakarta.

Maysa

2007-11-07T12:25:00.000-08:00

FAMILY,FAMILY,FAMILY..
THERE IS SO MUCH GOING ON IN MY LIFE IT'S A TRIP.
MOSTLY GOOD STUFF..SOME STUFF I WISH WOULD JUST GO AWAY,BUT THAT'S THE YOUNG GIRL IN ME TALKING.
I JUST LEFT L.A. I RECORDED A SONG CALLED THERE FOR YOU FOR WWW.LINCOLNLOUNGE.COM.

THE FAMOUS DRUMMER/PERCUSSIONIST HARVEY MASON PRODUCED IT AND HIS FAMOUS SONGWRITING/PRODUCING SON HARVEY MASON JR. MIXED IT.
YOU MAY OR MAY NOT KNOW THAT HARVEY MASON JR. IS PART OF "THE UNDERDOGS" TEAM WHO WRITES AND PRODUCES SO MANY OF TODAY'S HIP YOUNG R&B STARS,IT'S UNREAL.

SO TO SAY THE LEAST ,GETTING A CHANCE TO EVEN WALK IN THEIR STUDIOS WAS AMAZING TO MY NEICES AND NEPHEW WHO TRIPPED WHEN I TOLD THEM WHO I WAS WORKING WITH..ALSO A SMOOTH JAZZ ARTISTS BUDGET WOULDNT EVEN PAY FOR A WEEK OF LUNCH IN THAT JOINT,LET ALONE GETTING A SONG PRODUCED BY THEM!
SO IT WAS ALOT OF FUN..

THE SONG IS A MIX OF CLUB,HIP-HOP,MY OLDER SOUNDING VOICE,SO IT'S INTERESTING HOW IT WILL BE RECIEVED..HOPEFULLY THE KIDS WILL LIKE IT AND Y'ALL OLD ASSES WILL LIKE IT TOO!! LMAO LINCOLN HAS A SLICK WEBSITE GOING ON..I LIKE IT ALOT.

BUT THE GREAT THING IS THAT I REALLY GOT A FEEL FOR L.A. AGAIN.MY BOYFRIEND WENT WITH ME.YES....HELL TO THE YES...I SAID BOYFRIEND CHILE' HOLD THE PHONE!!

MORE ABOUT HIM LATER...
BEING IN L.A. IS SO FUN..I WISH I COULD AFFORD TO LIVE OUT THERE FOR A WHILE..MAYBE I WILL DO THAT THIS SUMMER..SAVE MY PENNIES AND TRY TO GET AS MUCH WORK DONE AS I CAN WHILE I'M OUT THERE...

CHANGING THE SUBJECT SLIGHTLY BECAUSE THIS JUST CAME TO MY MIND, I WAS WALKING WITH MY MAN..HE'S REALLY HANDSOME,AND WOMEN JUST GRINNED ALL UP IN HIS FACE LIKE I WASN'T STANDING THERE HOLDING HIS HAND!!

I HAVEN'T HAD A MAN IN SO LONG I HAD FORGOTTEN ABOUT THAT SH*T. WHEN IT HAPPENED WE JUST LAUGHED IT OFF,BUT IT DID PISS ME OFF.
LADIES,THATS' COLD, SMILING AT HIM AND LOOKING AT ME WITH GREEN EYES...

ANYWAY,OTHER THAN THAT WE HAD A GREAT TIME..WE DID A LITTLE PROMOTIONAL MUSIC VIDEO WHICH I AM SECRETLY DREADING SINCE I AM NOT EXACTLY VIDEO MATERIAL RIGHT NOW IN MY LIFE...(I NOT TRIPPIN JUST STATING THE FACTS YA'LL..) "T"(MY HONEY) WAS IN IT,THE DIRECTOR DABLING HARWARD,DID SUCH A GREAT JOB WITH HOWARD HEWITT AND KENNY LATIMORE'S, I HOPE HE CAN WORK A MIRACLE FOR A SISTA.

MY SHOWS AT BLUES ALLEY HAVE BEEN MOVED TO JULY..THIS WAS A DECISION MADE BY THE CLUB,SORRY IF ANYONE WAS INCONVIENIENCED(sp).BUT THE GOOD THING IS THAT I HAD METAMORPHOSIZED YET SO THIS GIVES ME 8 MORE MONTHS TO DO SOMETHING AND STOP B.S.-ING.

AT THESE SHOWS LAST YEAR I TOLD EVERYONE I WOULD COME BACK METMORPHOSIZED,AND IT WOULD HAVE BEEN A SHAME TO SHOW UP ONLY HAVING LOST 7LBS. LOL

HEY I GOTTA FINISH THIS DIARY LATER BECAUSE I HAVE TO GO TO THE AIRPORT AGAIN TO GO TO BOSTON FOR A JOB INTERVIEW. I WILL TELL YOU HOW IT GOES IN PART TWO,PLUS I WILL TELL YOU HOW THINGS WENT WHEN I RECORDED IN LONDON LAST WEEK WITH BLUEY...

JAZZ WENT TO SCHOOL AS AN AIRLINE PILOT FOR HALLOWEEN..ISNT HE A CUTIE!

PLUS I HAVE TO TELL YOU ABOUT THE CAPITAL JAZZ FEST CRUISE AND SHOW YOU PICTURES..HERE'S A FEW!

MAYSA LIVE

2007-07-04T07:46:00.000-07:00

HEY FAMILY..

WORDS CAN NOT EXPRESS HOW OVERWHELMED I AM WITH THE RECORDING AT THE BIRCHMERE LAST WEEKEND,AND HOW YOU ALL RECIEVED US..YOU MADE US FEEL LIKE SUPERSTARS!!

MY BAND WAS OFF THE HOOK COMPLETELY,AND I AM SO PROUD OF THEM.

TO TY,BERNIE AND TROY ,WANDA TAMMY,NITA NICKA,TODD,MOMMY..EVERYBODY WHO HELPED ME PLAN AND EXECUTE THE WHOLE THING..THE SOUND COMPANY AND ENGINEERS..

WAYNE BRUCE,MY MUSIC DIRECTOR...WOW YOU REALLY DID IT HONEY..THANK YOU SO MUCH..

I'M WORN OUT..BUT I WILL COME BACK AND DO A BETTER DIARY LATER..

I LOVE Y'ALL SO MUCH .,THANK YOU!

MAYSA

Weight Watchers,Canada,Underground Divas..

2007-05-09T21:40:00.000-07:00

Hey y'all..

I'm sitting here at home at 12:07 am,Thursday,May 10,2007.

I just came from The Giant Supermarket and I bought a freezer full of Smart Ones(tm) from Weight Watchers.

I am trying to get my ass in gear for my metamorphosis..dammit I was supposed to start in January after Blues Alley,then I got blindsided by work and man stuff,and I am just really focused TODAY..I started my two mile walk around my neighborhood on Monday..didn't do squat Tuesday and today,but I'm gonn get my hips up at 6am(less than 6 hours from now) and WALK WALK WALK....my mom is doing it with me,shes already lost 14 pounds in the last two weeks and she hasnt even started exercising yet.

I am going to St.Lucia to sing at the Jazz Fest, I am filling in for my buddy Will Downing,who is recovering from being sick since January...(he tells his story on his website..) He's such a strong man,I am praying for him.

I leave at 5 am on Friday Morning,and then I get back on Mothers Day at 6:30 pm..and my mom is cooking a crazy meal of Seafood Salad,Crabcakes,Spareribs(oh my gosh Jazz devours Spareribs!! I wish I could get a picture of him..y'all would crack up!)..and goodness knows what else..so we are taking that day off the diet ,but come Monday morning,I am back on schedule.

So my routine is basically..

-Walking every morning for 45 minutes which is 2 miles (for me)..I'll cut the time down soon)

-Weight Training with my personal trainer at his gym in Security Mall (Charles Harris III is his name),three days a week.

When I am on the road I will walk the stairs in the hotel for thirty minutes and /or go to the gym if they have one. Or go for a walk around the hotel.

I time myself by my new CD which is about 50 minutes long..

-My Maysa Menu

* Breakfast- What ever I want within 10 points.

* snack-fruit/yogurt (count the points)

*Lunch- Smart Ones meal

*snack-??? within my daily points

*Dinner-Smart Ones meal

-Drink alot of water

-Pray that I will stick to this this time.Please GOD help me. :)

I'm sorry I'm such a punk and refuse to tell you how much I weigh today,but I will admit that as of today ,May 10,2007. I have 95 pounds to lose.

I'm trying to get the new site up as soon as possible,so that we can publicly show you all my progress...

Oh I haven't told you guys about the Canadian Smooth Jazz Awards..I had a great time ,and I did a pretty good job as a presenter I think. Troy, went with me,and as a director,he said I did good. and believe me ,he doesnt hold back when he thinks he can help you improve!

Al Jarreau won in my category,but I wasn't mad..it's like losing an award to your teacher! It's all good.

Troy took most of the pictures..but I did get some cool ones of the hotel we stayed in for the Jam Sessions the next night ..very nice!

I like Toronto..hey,BRUCE??? What happened to you?Dag..

Oh well dahlin's..I'll add some more tomorrow..I gotta tell you about my first REVENGE OF THE UNDERGROUND DIVAS CONCERT!

The inaugural concert unfortunately is a private gig,but hopefully it will lead to something big!

This flyer is an unofficial idea. And I probably shouldn't put it out there yet..but I want y'all to see what's going on..ya dig??

Love ya, I'm sleepy. 'Night.

Maysa

My Man 's Gone Now.. (Porgy and Bess) LOL

2007-04-08T13:15:00.000-07:00

First of all..LALAH SANG HER ASS OFF..on the new EWF Interpretations CD...I play it over and over...damn that girls voice is amazing.And her production of the song is off the chain...

Now to the diary...

hey family,(ignore typos..don't feel like dealing..LOL)

i just wanted to say hello,and Happy Easter.I really have a lot on my mind,and i'm trying to get a grip on my life right now.trying to figure a new direction. i'm focused first and foremost on my metamorphosis..i joined weight watchers on Thursday,and I mapped out 2 miles near my house to run/jog /walk everyday. I will alsoi be going to my trainer three days a week. I don't really want to think about what I'm going to eat ,so i bought $100 dollars worth of weight watchers meals at the market today..normally I have talked myself out of counting points,but i am more determined than ever to change my appearance and maintain my healthy status. I want to stay healthy for the rest of my life if I can,so I am starting with my mind.

It's been hard to ease my mind since I broke up with my boyfriend. I really thought I was done with my search,but you know I am a woman who can easily adapt to any situation.
I have done it before and I'll do it again. But this time..for some

reason,I can't get him out of my mind.
and it hits me in waves...like for instance,I'll be fine all day long and one thought,or if I see something he likes or if I hear something that reminds me of him,my heart sinks,and I feel sick.

I don't remember feeling this way about any other man I have been with.
I think most of the problem with me having a hard time dealing with it is

because I know I didn't do anything wrong to bring us to this situation..(I never do...sorry if that sounds egotistical,but the truth is I am quite a catch!!!! HAHAHA,talk that shit Maysa!) He told me he loved me

constantly,we were always laughing and we were just happy.I baked him Chocolate Cake, Apple and Cherry pies..even though I still think he thinks my mom made 'em!

I believed he loved me. He sure made me feel it.Used to tell me I was beautiful all the time. Wow..I miss him!! LOL

He was a sweet and gentle giant,strong ,responsible and

made me feel like I was safe all the time.Even when he wasn't around.He's

a wonderful man.Yeah,he is.

But life throws curve balls and I don't understand it.(I can't explain

the circumstances).

I mean I asked GOD,why would you show him to me if you weren't gonna let

him stay here?
My happiness was so strong,it surprised me!
My whole family..friends,band members..everyone was so excited for us.

Oh boy..I though writing it out would make me feel better,but It's not right now..

but let me say this..it's strange though....as sad as I am about us not being together,I am surprisingly excited about being free to meet other men too. Is that normal? To me it doesn't mean that I didn't love him strong..I mean I had to ask myself that question over and over.I guess my spiritual belief is that GOD and the universe will send me someone else to make me feel as good as he did or better..I deserve the happiness I was feeling,because I have been good. ;) Love will come around again..right Prince Charming??? Huh?? Huh??? I'm still waiting on ya big boy..:)

I have decided to deal with it by working harder,spending a lot more time with my son and my mom,and trying to find ways to make money, and to change myself so I can wear all the lovely clothes I bought for when "that day" comes...I am so looking forward to the first photo session and gig after my metamorphosis..

Change of subject...

I have been doing some great gigs lately,one of which was the Angela Bofill benefit concert in Detroit.
I was a nervous wreck...especially when I did Angel of The Night..she was right on stage when we started that!

She was so sweet though,and I really hope she gets beter and better every day.

I have been working with Grammy award winning producer Jason Miles,doing some gigs with him called Soul Summitt,and some Marvin Gaye Tribute concerts..I am going to Morrocco with him in about 10 days..It's gonna be fun..(i'm singing I want You,and What A Man,and some other soul songs..like I have Learned To Live Without You,by Mavis Staples...(How appropriate!) I was feeling that tune!!!!

I finally got to South Carolina..I did a gig in Columbia with Marion

Meadows and Pamela Williams..I enjoyed myself..the audience was off the hook..thanks for the warm welcome Columbia..now I gotta come back there with my band and get to Charlotte too..!!

I am also excited about The Canadian Smooth Jazz Awards on April 27,2007.
I was nominated International VOcalist of The Year along with Al Jarreau!!!! Corine Bailey Rae,Michael Franks,and David Pack. I am so excited!! It's so wonderful to know that when I was 12 my uncle turned me on to Al Jarreau and he is the VERY reason I wanted to sing Jazz and to scat!! I listened to him before I got into Ella Fitzgerald and Sarah

Vaughn.. so to be in the same catagory as him is wild! Troy told me to write a speech..(yeah whateva!) I am presenting two awards and performing Hypnotic Love..should be alot of fun.I can hardly wait!

well dahlin's I am off to walk on the treadmill..I'm gonna listen to my new CD Feel The Fire: Sweet Classic SOul Vol. 2. This is my last CD for Shanachie..just these two special projects was all I was to do for them.

I am having a very difficult time with the record company about the cover photos..I took them myself and I love them. I wanted to do something that is more in my true character..I'm tired of the super posed "pretty pictures"..I wanted to express myself like in the '70's when they used to make some wildly sexy covers...I remember when we couldn't waitto see what The Ohio Players were gonna do next! It was such a big deal then...Believe me..I had a picture of my "girls",LOL but I knew the company would have had a heart attack!the kids have seen much worse on MTV all these years.. a damn lollipop isn't gonna hurt nobody.

This is my last '70's cover record though..if I cover anything else it will be Christmas Songs and Jazz Standards..

As a matter of fact,I really want to do a Christmas CD soon..maybe this year I will get one out..

But my main CD for early 2008 is METAMORPHOSIS...I can't wait. The writing I am doing for it is so sexy and organic,and spiritual all at the same time. More raw vocals..not so produced,but slick..I am looking forward to seeing who will help me produce this one. I love working with Rex,and Big Dog and Bluey,and I am excited to see who else will bring out the true Leo the lion in me!!

Going back to Feel The Fire..
Here is the track listing...(yes I gave it to TerrAnce early because he actually is my very first cuzzin! (if I am wrong email me!) but I met TerrAnce in 1995 when I was performing at The Red Mill in in Milwaukee..at one of the first solo gigs I had ever done..)

And he drove all the way from Charlotte and helped me sell cd's..
But ALLLLLLL of you mean the world to me and I appreciate you all the same.Please understand that. I LOVE YOU. Thank you for my career.

Anyway..I'm delaying what I must do.Gotta go walk/run/jog my way to a new me..and literally count(points) my ass off!( I got side tracked in the middle of Jan. when all this man stuff started..so I haven't lost 2 ounces since then..hahaha.)

Then I'm gonna go find one of my male friends and get me a big ole manly hug. I really need one today. ;) and tomorrow too!..shoot everyday! yummmm!

FEEL THE FIRE:SWEET CLASSIC SOUL VOL.2

2007-04-03T09:57:00.000-07:00

1. I CAN'T HELP IT
2.YOU ARE MY STARSHIP
3. HAPPY FEELINGS
4. I DON'T WANNA LOSE YOUR LOVE
5. FEEL THE FIRE
6. ZOOM
7. SEND FOR ME
8. I'M IN LOVE
9. THIS TIME I'LL BE SWEETER

10.AIN'T NO SUNSHINE

Looking for a new love..Brian Culberston Cruise..the future

2007-02-08T13:37:00.000-08:00

Hey Famz..

I know I have been terrible at writing diaries lately..so much has been going on..I was trying to nurture a relationship, take care of my family,keep my career going..trying to get in shape.. everything has been overwhelming and I need to take a break for a while.

My wonderful relationship is over already. He is still a good guy,it's just not our time right now,so I am back praying for,waiting for and hoping for my prince charming to sweep me off my feet one day. I DO still believe. I'm hurting right now..but thats the way it goes..huh?

The Brian Culbertson Cruise was cool..Wanda and her sisters Anita and Ann went along so I had some company.It was so nice to meet cuzzinz old and new...I liked being accessible to everyone.It felt really good to hug people and take pictures and stuff. Nice vibe.

I had to perform to track though after a week of live music from every other artist on the boat..but it's cool and I stilk tried my best to do my thing and it went over well anyway. No matter what people try to do to me ,I ALWAYS WIN. I know it and I believe it with all my heart.

Being on the ship was fun..BUT..who told them to put a damn casino on that joint?? Didn't do so bad though..I got my money back the last night!

I am really excited about my new CD "FEEL THE FIRE" Sweet Classic Soul Vol.2.

It's my last special project for Shanachie. It's been cool working with them.

I think you all will like the new songs I selected this time around..I really think I would make a good A&R person..I know good music when I hear it. :)

Here are some pictures from the cruise...I'll speak to you all sooner than later this time.

I love you all very much.

Maysa

APRIL WAS THE LAST DIARY???? AWW DAMN SORRY Y'ALL!!!

2006-11-29T12:32:00.000-08:00

hey famz..i'm movin and shakin'...
I was just asked to replace Jodi Watley on a tour called the Soul Express.. www.soulexpress.us...
and I was asked to join producer Jason Miles to tour with him to Morracco,Marrakech (sp?)..etc... the Divas tour is getting closer to reality...the new Luther tribute cd i'm on is doing great already..just came out last week..my boyfriend is yummy and wonderful!! Jazz is turning 7 on December 6th! He's just a perfect little angel..well..not always..but he my heart!! I have been training THREE days a week with a trainer and running/walking on my treadmill...my diet is still screwed but I'm working on it!.....the weight will drop off when I get that straight!! lol... as soon as I get some money I start taking my weekly tennis lessons...I started karate lessons too..Jazz has been going for a while now..

Jazz on Easter Morning

2006-04-16T19:40:00.000-07:00

I rarely show recent pictures of my baby,but he looked sooo handsome this morning,I wanted y'all to see him.

I'm accepting arranged marriage offers already! :)

(Joking).

JACKSONVILLE FLORIDA..LOS ANGELES WITH BRIAN CULBERTSON

2006-03-24T11:30:00.000-08:00

hey y'all what's up?

I just got back from LA..I did a promotional date with Brian for his All Star Cruise,it was fun. The Garden Of Eden is a nice club...there were alot of people there..it was packed out..

I just always feel so self-conscious out there..because I don't have that LA look..I don't like how it feels...whatever..but the people are cool thank goodness...got to see David Nathan,(from soulmusic.com)and Pat Prescott who used to be a radio personality in New York,and now she's with the WAVE out there..Pat has been so supportive of my whole career..I wish they would let her choose the music at the station...she would have my back I'm sure...

Sometimes I wonder if I will ever see my career take a turn for the better soon...

Anyway..I'll write a new diary soon...

This one is done.. :)..well not really..

Jacksonville was off the hook..even with my terrible vocal chords..my peeps in Jacksonville treated me like I was in full voice!

We even had problems with the sound system,and the response to the band was incredible.We all appreciated the hospitality shown to us by the Ritz and we are really looking forward to playing there again.

Maysa

WOW....

2006-03-16T20:35:00.000-08:00

Went on a date tonight...got the kiss of my life. Yeah..seriously.

Good gosh almighty.

Whew!!

The Listening Party In Baltimore..(typos will be fixed later)

2006-03-04T12:59:00.000-08:00

Hey Y'all. I had such a great time at the listening party for the record last night in my hometown! (I'll post pictures soon)

Michele and her husband and son came and tried to buy me dinner..I ended up just getting a cup of tea..(which i didn't even get a chance to drink)...Thanks anyway Michele and family.

I was running around so much talking to people( I know I m supposed to be on vocal rest)...and doing short interview live on the radio through the night...and I sung with the awesome band they had there called the Rollex Band. The female lead singer,Baretta..was so full of energy,and the the male lead singer Keith was so cool.

I really enjoyed them so much. I was supposed to sing some songs from the album in between their breaks,but after they finished their first set and there was so much high energy in the place..there was no way on earth I was going to sing to some tracks. So I asked them if I could come and hang with them during the next set and they called me up on almost every song...Miss Baretta says she turning 51 next week..but she has a whole lot more energy than I do!

She inspired me so many ways last night..she has a wonderful stage presence. When she took a break I told the audience that she was my new teacher.

LoLo,the Quiet Storm radio personality who gave me this party has reallyy supported me over the years,doing her best to help get me out there even when the station wasn't able to play my music.

She's like one of the old school DJ's who would just play what they liked...any way,Thank Lolo..I felt like it was my birthday party..I was really spoiled last night.

I got an idea.. i'm going to ask Shanachie if they would be interested in holding Sweet Classsic Soul listening parties all of the states..maybe 6 major cities...

Well I want to take Jazzy out somewhere fun,so i'll talk to you all later....

Maysa

maysa's object of desire...

2006-03-02T10:41:00.000-08:00

Hey y'all..I'm feeling a certain gentleman alot lately..I hope I can tell you something good about him one day...

Let's see what happens...

;) Maysa

LADIES...TIME TO GET YOUR MACK ON!!

2006-02-28T19:26:00.000-08:00

I am so excited about Sweet Classic Soul because I got a chance to fully devote a whole record to the music that influenced me as a child growing up in the seventies.

This is the music I listened to over and over and over when I was teaching myself to sing. I hope that the artists, writers, producers, and the families of the artists who are no longer with us appreciate our interpretations of songs.

Also, I have deemed this record the "ladies mackin' record!"...a record women can use to set a romantic scene for the object of their desire! I know I am!

This Diary has been read 6,886 times since August 15,2004!!!

2006-02-27T22:06:00.000-08:00

But the 6 is missing..I gotta call AOL..

Went to one of my best friends..and Jazz's Godmother Wanda's birthday party tonight! We had a good time.

I can feel the energy.....it's about that time y'all!!!!

2006-02-26T11:05:00.000-08:00

It's time y'all...Sweet Classic Soul is kicking up some dust!

I'm am toooooo excited..I know I feel this way about all of my records,but this one really is getting a huge buzz..more so than my other CD's.

I am home right now trying to rest my voice. I have been having vocal problems since November and it's not getting any better so I have to go through some more testing next week.

My doctor looked at my vocal chords and said they were in perfect condition, just inflamed from acid reflux. I have been taking the medicine..changed my eating habits...sleeping elevated and on my left side..everything possible....I dont feel any symptoms of acid reflux,but my voice is still not back to 100 percent.

I also am having allergy tests done and I need to find a company that does environmental tests on your home..because I have been getting sick lately and I never get sick...when I sneeze or cough my back itches like crazy..that must be some type of allergic reaction...because my back is VERY CLEAN!! LOL...my voice is constantly hoarse..and my voice does that thing like Peter Brady on the Brady Bunch when his voice was changing..(y'all remember that episode)...

And you know double dag on well that I am not letting anything interfere with my money maker.. I mean this has been the scariest 4 months of my life. I don't know what I would do with my life if I couldn't sing to my peeps! But I hope that maybe GOD just wants me to rest..because I really don't.And maybe ,who know..maybe during this break I may hook up with "THE ONE"....my future sweetie can't find me if i'm on the road ALL the time..:)

Plus I get to be Jazz's mommy fo real..24/7...I get to get on a little schedule with my trainer...yeah..I'm gonna try to enjoy my little break.

I really enjoyed the American tour..which Bluey named "The East Coast Boogie Tour" (he names all of the tours we do)....every city was fantastic and really showed us alot of love....I am really proud of Baltimore..because since I don't get played much on the radio here I figured the crowd would be just.. okay!! But that joint was sold out!!

And the energy was off the hook!

Thank you home town...

It was really great to see my old and new "cuzzinz" too...Bruce who I haven't seen in a long time and to finally meet Miss Kendra!

I appreciate all of you for not slamming me about my voice and understanding that I was frustrated as hell...That is the worst feeling in the world to me..disappointing people who come to hear me sing.I am a basket case when I can't do my job.

But there was no way I wasn't gonna come out to see everyone...I just wish I could have sung my heart out like I wanted to.

If you haven't already done so ,please check out the interview I did with Ledisi..it's on the news page or her website messageboard.

Thank to the person who did the myspace site....I think it's pretty cool.

OH!!!

For those of you in the Baltimore/Washington area..I am having a record release party Friday March 3 in Baltimore at the City View Bar and Grill ,6700 Security Blvd. Radio personality LOLO and Majic 95.9 are sponsoring the event,and it's gonna be really sweet.I think it starts at 8pm..I will have the confirmed info on Monday.

Something really sweet happened to me at the station on Friday when I went to do (drops)...{"hello this is Maysa and you're listening to...."}

I ran into...literally... a beautiful man who I always see when I do the radio thing..but I felt a special connection to him this time.His energy towards me is awesome.....ummm....umm...ummm...anyway...

I better not say any more,because he may know someone who reads this site and I dont want this to get cheesy! lol...

So..back to Sweet Classic Soul...

I said to Goody on the message board that I really need everyones help to promote this cd however I dont want ya'll to go through any expense..I refuse to let this one fade into the background like my others...I have got to do whatever I can.

I spoke to Stevie (Wonder) and told him that I redid ALL I DO and he told me thank you!! Isn't that sweet! He hasn't heard it yet..I hope he likes it.

I gotta go..Jazz wants me to help him with his Zelda video game..The sad part is that I actually know how to play!

See ya soon,

Maysa

MAYSA SWEET CLASSIC SOUL

2006-01-10T17:54:00.000-08:00

1.WISHING ON A STAR

2.DON'T SAY GOODNIGHT

3.ALL I DO

4.LOVE WONT LET ME WAIT

5.COME GO WITH ME

6.BETCHA BY GOLLY WOW

7.PLAYIN' YOUR GAME BABY

8.LOVE COMES EASY

9.ANY LOVE

10.FIRST TIME EVER I SAW YOUR FACE

HAPPY NEW YEAR FAMILY!!!

2006-01-02T06:55:00.000-08:00

HIYA!

I'M IN LONDON,WILL BE HERE UNTIL THE 5TH..THEN I'M OFF TO BLACKPOOL....ON JAN.5,6,AND7...THEN HOME ON THE 8TH.

I AM TRYING TO UPDATE THE DIARY BUT THE ADD PICTURES PART ISNT WORKING...

BE BACK SOON...

ALOT OF GOOD STUFF HAS ALREADY BEGUN IN 2006!

MAYSA

Blues Alley.January 19-22

2005-12-26T12:22:00.000-08:00

Please join me at Blues Alley in Washington ,DC on January 19-22 for a listen to material from my new CD -Sweet Classic Soul.

We will be playing new music from my older Cds as well...

Tickets are now on sale...

Maysa

2005-11-20T02:20:00.000-08:00

Hey Famz...
The shows in London and Paris went really well..two guys almost started fighting in paris in the front row,but Bluey made them stop. But the audience was off the hook! So much energy.I haven't done a show in Paris in 12 years or more so it was great comng back..

We are in some part of Alps somewhere..we spent 8 hours yesterday at Charles De Gualle airport waiting for an engineer to come fix the tour bus.The heating was broken...I'll be back later..gone take a snooze...
Maysa

In London

2005-11-14T22:36:00.000-08:00

Hiya,

Just feeling weird sitting in this hotel in London.

I love it here,but i always get this deeply lonely feeling.

I guess I just miss my family.I miss my Jazzie.

It's hard being on the road and away from him.

I'm gonna take him with me during the summer.

Wish I could afford to have him tutored on the road,but he needs the experience and stability of going to a real school,plus thank God he has his grandma.

I am so grateful to God for sending me Laura Leak.Y'all don't know how much I love my mommy.

She is the most beautiful most awesome, strongest ,most loving, human being on earth.

I'm a lucky woman.I hope Jazzie,and any future babies I have feel the same way about me.

It's 6:34 am..I'm going back to sleep and dream about my husband who doesnt exist yet but will one day..hahahaha.

May

Maysa's Mackin' Record..

2005-11-11T00:39:00.000-08:00

Hey y'all,

Me and my (newest) producer Chris "BIG DOG" Davis,just left the studio tonight smiling brightly!! We are done! Well I am anyway,he still has some work to do.

I am so excited about this record I want to tell you all about it but it's too soon!

It will be released some time in January..you are going to love it,I just KNOW it!

Thanks to Danny Weiss at Shanachie,Chris,Wayne Bruce of Spur of the Moment..who by the way have a killer record coming out soon too),Angela Phillips,Lori and Vanessa Williams and Issac___) sang their asses off on this record! Thank you all so much...and all of the other musicians,the engineers at Night Flight Studios in Fort Washington, Maryland, my attorney Evan Krauss,my manager Berenice,and 2 of my best friends Troy Burton,and Mike White,who all helped me get through these 7 days of recordings with a bad throat..the encouragement helped alot...To my mommy and my son...LOLOLOL...

Dag, I sound like I'm giving an acceptance speech..FORESIGHT BABY!!

2006 is brighter than a mother shut yo mouth!!

I'mma tell you one thing..when my "husband' hears this record..he is coming to rescue me do you hear me!!

I have 4 nights at Blues Alley lined up for January 19-22 and I swear I wish I could do a single males only show! Just one show dedicated to some sweet single men out there...huh?? there's only 3 left?? Aww damn! HAHAHAHA..

Seriously,this is my mackin' record fo real!!

Actually Im going to dedicate it to all of my sistas out there who want to pull some brothas...this record,a sexy nightie,and CHOCOLATE, strawberries,whipped cream,baby oil..oops!

PG ,Maysa,PG..

Anyway y'all get me ,don't you ladies!!!!

Yeah boy,the brothas wont be able to resist...

Blues Alley will be off the hinges I promise..Adults Only!!

See ya!!

GERMANY PICTURES..not one picture of Germany!LMAO..

2005-11-08T06:28:00.000-08:00

Hey y'all..

here are some pictures from Germany..they made a DVD..it looked wonderful,but my voice is still screwed a little..everyone else sounded great.

I'm a little sad today,but i'll get over it..I'm gonna treat Jazzie to a really nice swing set (he knows its an early birthday gift).I'm thinking about one of those companies that come out and build it in your yard so it's really sturdy.

I'm still in paper work hell,and i have jet lag,and I have to go into the studio to make sure my cd is sounding as good as I can get it,with my throat in bad condition.

Just stressed a little..

I love you..

Maysa

my self portrait....

2005-11-01T18:12:00.000-08:00

Hey y'all..doing absolutely nothing.

Got alot of paperwork to do..don't want to.

Gotta pack for this weekend in Germany.Don't feel like it.

I took that picture myself last week in London.

If your eyes are the windows to your soul...

what the heck is my soul thinking?..feeling...wanting..needing....?

A Real Nigga Show makes it's touring debut tonight at Wilberforce University in Ohio...

I know it's going great....

Can't wait until you hear the new CD....:)

Goodnight.....

May

2005-10-31T20:42:00.000-08:00

Hi everyone..

I'm on a two day break before Incognito goes to Germany...I have to fly out Wed night....I'm glad I got a chance to spend Halloween with Jazzie and our family.

The producer for the new CD,gave me a copy of the roughs so I can gage what I need to redo...most of the work i did is cool..I just want it to be as close to perfect,as i can get it.

I am suffering from the beginning stages of acid reflux and my vocal chords have been inflamed for a while now.My doctor has me on all kinds of medication...

Ypu know what lesson I have learned from this? I wil NEVER ever give up singing because of some dumb music industry bull stuff.

Not having my moneymaker working in top condition has scared the HELL out of me.

My doc says that in 6 weeks i should be fine,but i have to make some behavioral changes,such as not eating 8pm,not even water.

No citrus foods,spicy,etc..(which is cool since I dont like spicy foods anyway)

I have to sleeop on my left side which feels a little weird simce I like sleeping on my stomach...

but I dont care what she told me to do .I am going to do it because if I lose my voice,i'm up the creek....

Incognito has a show in Cork,Ireland last weekend which was fun..We did about 8 new songs from the new CD which is always exciting...

I had a hard time memorizing the new songs Come Away With Me and When Tomorrow Brings You Down...and all the backgrounds on Imanni and Tony;s songs.

Carleen Anderson is joing us from The Forum Show till the end of the year.it's going to be fun being on tour with her!

I met Ed Motta and went out to dinner with Bluey and his family,Ed and his wife and Gail...we ate Lebonese food.which of course I was tripping about..I mean dag I just got used to Indian! but it was good...

Well I'm sleepy dahlins'...

Love ya.

Maysa

Fund Raiser for Eubie Blake Jazz Institute-Baltimore

2005-10-20T04:29:00.000-07:00

After my recording session,I got a chance to see some of Roberts' one man show. He is sooooo gifted and blessed.This man is gonna be a household name one day soon. He just got a call from "THE WIRE" so I 'm keeping my fingers crossed for him. If you are in Baltimore,please come check it out.

Nashville,Tennessee, The Vibe Room, Recording New CD

2005-10-17T06:04:00.000-07:00

Hi cuzzinz,

I have just returned home after spending the a couple days recording with Kendall Duffie of the group Kloud 9 at his studio in Nashville.

We were recording a song called "Runnin'" for a compilation for Expansion Records in London.

This was my first time working with Kendall as a producer,and I was truly impressed.

After we finished some vocals Kendall took me to a club called Level 88,where I met my manager Berenice (who moved to Nashville a few years ago with her husband and daughter).

When we arrived,a couple of Kendalls friends were on the stage singing their booty's off! Then they called me up and the band played Deep Waters for me.

The next day we went to the Waffle House...I haven't been to one of those since I was on the Morgan Choir in college,and we used to go on those Southern tours.

After breakfast we recorded some more,and then went to do an interview at Fisk University's radio station 88.1 WFSK.

I really enjoyed the interview,it was relaxed and I was proud to be at another HBCU(Historically Black College and/or University).Thanks Tory! On Friday Night I had gone to Morgan's Homecoming Gala with my cousin Lauren. being at Fisk and Morgan made me want to go back to school. I think I might do just that. Whenever I find some time.

I really wish I could do a college tour one day.

Speaking of college tours,A REAL NIGGA SHOW,(which I produce,and my tour manager,Troy Burton directs ) ,is going on the road with a show at Wilberforce University on November 1,2005.

Also,another play that The Blueroses Entertainment Group is producing is from a young and upcoming actor from Baltimore named Robert Hardy.

His one man show is called Me ,Myself ,and Us,and it debuts at The Eubie Blake Jazz and Cultural Institute in Baltimore on October 19,20,and 21.

I'll get all of the deatils and post it on the news page later today.

I start recording a new CD today. It's a one off CD for Shanachie Records.

I have to record 2 songs a day because I have to leave to go on tour with Incognito on the 26 of October.

I'll keep you updated about our progress...

See ya soon..

Oh! The Revenge of The Underground Divas will happen one day next year ya'll.I need to sit down with a grant writer since this tour will be education based,and map out the game plan.

When I get back from taking Jazz tom school,I'll post some picturesfrom my weekend...

Maysa

What an interesting weekend...

2005-10-09T18:57:00.000-07:00

Hey y'all..

This turned out to be a really nice weekend. Last night(Saturday) I went on a ........DATE!!!! WHAT???? ,yes a DATE.

Can you believe it? I had a really nice time with a producer/singer/songwriter I met years ago in '99.

I have to get his permission to tell you who he is,(just to be fair) but anyway,he took me to a party in DC and then we went to the Cheesecake Factory in Bethesda,Maryland.

Very sweet man,opened every door,was very attentive..you know the usual good stuff. I had a really nice time.Did I 'let him get a kiss goodnight'? YES!! LOL

Today,I went to Atlantic City with my girlfriends,and instead of sitting in one casino losing all my money,I felt like doing something different. I took a look at the helicopter ride,and thought.."oh hell no"...I looked at the bungee jumping thingy..and thought yeah right..I can see those cords snapping when my booty gets on it..and then I saw THE HORSES ON THE BEACH!! EUREKA!!! I wanted to ride a horse so bad,and my cousin wanted to ride too,so we both decided to pay $25 dollars each. When it was our turn, my heart started beating so fast,and then it took a minute for me to pull myself up on top if that big joker,because I asked for the BIGGEST horse there! I know horses are strong but I didn't want to be the one to break his back.....lol.....anyway,the people who were guides were telling me that once I get on I wouldn't want to get off..and they were right. The ride was for 30 minutes and it seemed to be over so quick. MOOSE ,my horse was called,was a little wild...and the told me how to control him,so the whole time all I was saying was "WHOA MOOSE!".. I kept feeling like I was either gonna fall off,or he was gonna throw my butt to the ground..thank goodness we were on sand! There is a lot to learn about riding a horse and I think I want to start Jazzie early. By the half way point,the guide was calling me a cowgirl,and was flirting with me,talking all kinds of mess!! He told me to call him and he would give me riding lessons!!!!! (I would comment more but children may bereading this).

I think he told me his name was "Ram Rod"...LMAO!!!!(I swear he did!) He had me laughing the whole time!Made me forget I was scared! Then later he told me it was "Cowboy"...hahahaha..but really by 15 minutes I was really in the groove and feeling the rythmn and it's great exercise..I really wish I could make this an adult only diary...cause.....boy oh boy...I could tell you alot more about this experience,but I'm sure you catch my drift....LOLOLOL....

I know my thighs are stomach are gonna kill me tomorrow...

I'm gonna get the chat thing going and will post the number and time on the news page...I think we should change the date to Wednesday...

See ya..

Maysa

Diary Archives

2005-10-08T06:45:00.000-07:00

Hi..If you are new to the site or just for fun,you want to track my several near-nervous breakdowns..you can check them out by using the link at the bottom of this page..

I have years of diary entries that will put on the site soon.....

Peace,

Maysa

Feelin Blue...

2005-10-05T20:46:00.000-07:00

WANT ADS: Lonely(but not desperate!) in Baltimore

HUSBAND!!!!! WHERE ARE YOU????

I'm tired of waiting.

Love,

Your future happiness.

Too Tired to correct typos...will explain the pics 2morrow!

2005-10-04T20:28:00.000-07:00

Hello family,
I know,I know..this is going to be a long one so you may need to read it in parts....

First check out my table at my friend Wandas' sister's house a couple weeks ago..I had a ball selling stuff i don't even look at anymore. I will be doing more yard sales in the future.I really have a good time selling my "stuff". :)

I must tell you,before I get started on Bulgaria and the Emmy's, I have just signed a new record deal today. It's a transitional piece of work that I am really excited about.

Next summer,I turn 40 years old,and plan to have a HUGE birthday celebration...(it's also my 15th year singing with Incognito)..anyway,the next cd that I release (after this transitional one ) will be one that is a life-changing,musical style changing metamorphosis of mind body spirit and music!

When I turn 40 it will mark my 34th year of being consumed by the desire to live my life as a storyteller through words and music.

Recently,the head of one of the "majors",told my manager that there was nothing there for me,even though he really respected my work.I must admit that "I "went there",getting all upset,trying to make it personal like i usually do,but this time the pain of rejection only lasted two days.

One,because I have tried to hold on to my theory of the 'Law of Attraction'and wanted to remain positive.Secondly,because I have a wonderful group of family and friends who take turns either cussing people out with me,or telling me straight to my face."GET OVER IT!"It's a wonderful yin and Yang and it helps me face reality much faster than before.And thirdly,because I got the call for this Transitional record a few days later! :) How awesome is that.The Law of Attraction REALLY WORKS!

So anyway,I am so excited about this project,but i can't tell you anymore about it because I want it to be sort of a surprise...it should be released in January,and hopefully my metmorphosis record will be released after my birthday..plus i will be promoting Incognito's new record in the states in 2006....Y'all..if I don't get great publicity with all this music coming out..I don't know what else to do.

One thing that I will be doing to promote my music next year is to do small club dates in alot of cities,tour like the old school days...

Okay..enough of that...

I had a nice time in Bulgaria with Incognito.
It was weird flying all over the place to do that one

gig,but boy what a gig it was!!!

Because I had to be back in LA on the 17th to go to the EMMY AWARDS,I had to take a train from Baltimore to Newark NJ,fly from Newark to London,London to Bulgaria,then on the Saturday before the awards,I flew from Bulgaria to London,London to Newark,and then Newark to LA...Saxophonist Tom Scott,(who wrote the theme song to Starsky and Hutch if ya didn't know..and who featured me on 'Dont Get Any Better Than This' on his Night Creatures CD)who has been the music director for the EMMYs for a few years now,invited me to come check it out form behind the scenes! I was as excited as a kid in Toys R Us!

On the day of the awards telecast (live),my best friend Kim took me to meet Tom because the Shrine Auditorium and all surrounding streets were under heavy heavy security,and I needed to ride with him since of course he had ALL ACCESS!!!

We got to the stage door and walked right pass a table with about 35 Emmy Awards on it! The lady watching them wouldn't let me takle a picture.In fact,I really don't have alot opf pictures to show you because It wasn't that kind of thing from the "inside" if you know what I mean. There was a place where pictures were taken and it was all organized and being in'their ' world I didn't feel like it was cool to keep asking people to take a picture. I felt uncomfortable about picture taking,yet EVERYONE I met was extremely NICE!! Yeah,it shocked me to see that the people all over the tabloids were considerate and actually very sweet. I didn't meet one egomanic the whole evening.

So anyway,I went to get dressed in Toms dressing room,and as I walk down the hall,I passed dressing rooms for Donald Trump,Macy Gray, Gary Dourdan.....from CSI,etc..They were there to do The Emmy Idol contest.

After I got dressed Tom asked me if I wanted to see the control room,and I met the producers of the Emmy's ,very gracious very polite.

THEN!!
We went into the Architectural Digest green room,and there was this lady sitting there with alot of papers,Tom knew her from when he did the Pat Sajak show or Chevy Chase show.I forget which one..he was the MD for both...anyway we spoke for a bit and then I look up and there was Teri Hatcher from Desperate Housewives!! And that when I discovered the lady in that room was the script lady and that I was in the PERFECT spot to see a hell of alot of people I watch on tv everyday.

In comes Quentin Tarrantino,Ben Affleck,theother Desperate Houswives...and it's funny..all these people spoke to me,not knowing who I was,and they all had this who are you? look on their faces! I was trippin!

I guess Tom saw that I was enjoying that spot so he went on to do some last minute stuff and when he came back ,there I was still grinning! I had such a ball!

Then we went to our seats and what an adventure that was..as we were walking,I saw so many people it was a trip.I can't even name all of them.But one person who stood out was Mathew St.Patrick who played Keith Charles on one of my favorite shows last year Six Feet Under.
That brother is so handsome.When he stopped to pass me I looked right in his eyes and said "hello" and he said hello baby!! AAGAGGGAHHHA!!! Whew...my little moment with Mathew...and I just saw him on tv a few nights before fantasizing my ass off about him! Wow LA is alright after all! Too bad he's married..I would have jumped on hm for real!

Just before the show was over I went back to another green room and there was the actress who plays Karen on Will and Grace.Now she is one of my mothers favorite tv actors..she loves Nash Bridges ,Monk and Karen on Will and Grace.And most times if I hear my mother screaming <FONTFACE="ARIAL size="2" Black?>laughing it's because of something "Karen " has said on that show. So I asked her if she would call my mom and she took the phone and said "hello Laura,this is Megan Mullally.I play Karen on Will and Grace" and then the whole room heard my mother Screaming!! LOL That was fun. She told my mother that she must be beautiful because I was looking absolutely beautiful that night.!

It's funny,because I have spent all of my career worried about my weight because of "hollywoods" standards,and here I was in Hollywood at one of their biggest events and the main players in this game were calling me beautiful all night!
Surreal. Okay enough ego trippin.

So in to the room comes Carson from Queer Eye for a Straight guy and I started beaming again,because I had just been on the airplane from London laughing so hard at this episode where they try to transform this single dad,and Carson was so funny on that show i had to contain myself on the airplane ..and then here he comes walking in to the room along with Ellen the host of the show.

He walks over to where I was sitting and the other people introduced me and I told him about the episode(what a nerd I am sometimes..but what else do you say?),and he said that he's heard of Incognito,and I said well I wish I had time to go get my CD's for you and to my delight and surprise,he told me he was gonna follow me to the dressing room to get them!!So I took him to the room and gave him my CD's! Awesome fun.

So after the show,we went to the Govenors Ball.On the way in Tom said maysa let me introduce you to WHOOPI GOLDBERG!!!! She turned to me took my hands and said chile I have seen you somehwere before! I have heard you sing somewhere! And at that moment i told her what a big fan I was..I know everyone says that! But I didnt know what else to say....and after the fact I remembered that she may have seen the PSA that Jazz and I did for the March of Dimes that ran all of last year all over the states!
Anyway I gave her my CD's!!

LOL..Then I turn around and meet Barbara Hershey. I told her that another one of my best friends and I cried when we went to see Beaches!So we sat down at a beautiful table and Macy Gray came in and I had her call my neice and Nephew!! I had people working that night. I just wanted my family to enjoy the night with me.I had such a great time and everyone made me feel so welcome. At that moment,Tom asked me if I had seen Charles Dutton and I said no...then i went to get up to go to the ladies room and ran right into his arms! i said hey i'm Maysa from baltimore and he said hey what are you doing out here..and I told him how Tom invited me and we talked for a while.he told me someone had just sent my last CD to his house on his farm in Howard county,andthat he comes to Baltimore from time to time! He asked me to send my numbers and stuff to his agent,because neither one of us had a pen...have I don that yet?? No! I'll get Troy or Bernie on it this week.
All in all after Tom dropped me off at my girlfriends house felt like Cinderella before 12 midnight.Dag,I had a ball.

There's so much more I could tell you..but I can hardly stay awake and I better get on to some other stuff before I get too sleepy. I'm determined to finish this diary tonight.

Baltimore,even without a drop of publicity,I still had a ball with the 200+ of you that showed up at the gig the other night.
I'm so sorry I was hoarse,but I tried to do my best.
There was a DVD made,I gotta check it first.The Rams Head Live is a GREAT venue.I mean GREAT. I hope that Incognito does that place when we come here.I told Bluey's manager about it yesterday.

Come on over to Dimensions in Music tomorrow at 11 am to check out Will Downing promoting his new CD.I'm gonna go support and buy one myself.

I'll try to get these pictures to load tonight. If they don't I'll get my cable modem fixed tomorrow and do it then...
Let's thank Raymond,who is busy with his beautiful family and work,for fixing the site so I can do updates.
Thank you Raymond.

I'm toast y'all..I have been up all night helping one of my friends deliver her baby! I'm Auntie Maysa again!

Maysa's mommas cakes..touring info...

2005-08-30T09:44:00.000-07:00

These tour dates are pencil dates so far and it is an uncomplete list.I just wanted to give you an idea of what's going on in my life right now.

September 3-Newport News,Virginia (private show)
September 16-Sofia ,Bulgaria-Incognito

September 29-Baltimore Maryland-Rams Head Live

DEC 15            fly to Thailand
DEC 16            Bangkok, Thailand
DEC 17            Seoul, Korea
DEC 18            Seoul, Korea (day off)
DEC 19-25 (7 days)    Blue Note Tokyo
DEC 26   off DEC 27-28 (2 days)     Nagoya Blue Note
DEC 29-31 (3 days)    Osaka Blue Note
fly back on the 1st or 2nd January 2006

January 6-BlackPool,England-Maysa Smooth Sailing promo

My mom made these beautiful cakes for a friends baby shower..aren't they sweet!

Don't Forget!...I want to see you at the Ram's Head Live! In Baltimore onn September 29!

I just took Jazz to his Kindergarten orientation at school..joined the PTA..wow..I feel like a real mommy today.

On the road with Incognito,and other stuff...

2005-07-26T16:17:00.000-07:00

Hiya honeys....

I am taking a minute out my insane schedule to post some pictures from the last tour in Italy,Montreaux,home..etc...

I have a really bad tooth and it hurts so bad it makes me cry..haven't had a bad tooth in over 22 years!!!

Don't have any wisdom teeth,so it's not that...(no jokes Harron and TerrAnce)..just a bad infection..yuck...

Jazz has a new puppy named Sonny Bone-O....

We are going to London on Sunday so I can finish my songs on the new 'Cog CD,and Jazz is going along to spend some time with his daddy....

I started with my trainer last Monday,and haven't been back since,but I have been exercising on my own,so I'm still on my mission...

I feel like I'm about to meet my husband any minute now...I feel this exciting energy around me....like a romantic ,dreamy feeling.I know he's coming to me very soon....stronger feeling than it's been before.

See Ya,

Oh!! I had a BALL in Detroit...the City Council and the Mayor gave me the Key to the City..the Mayor called me and said he was my number one fan!! Awwwww!!

Maysa

Sorry Famz.....

2005-06-25T10:51:00.000-07:00

I'm home,but I have been really sick..
my body shut down on me when I got back from Russia..my pressure went up (155/107),I had pains in my chest,paramedics came to my house and did an EKG..which was normal,so my doctor made me get a CT Scan to rule out a blood clot.
That was a scary experience..they had to give me an IV drip to shoot dye in my veins for a contrast CT Scan...so finally,after a few agonizing days,I have and a clean bill of health..my doctor said that I was suffering from stress and exhaustion. He also said that I have been very lucky to retain the level of health that I have had with the added extra weight. I know I have been a healthy person my whole life,and if I don't do something,my health will go down if I don't get this weight off. This weight feels like Satan on my back. Something will be done.Now.This is the last time I will ever mention my weight until I have done something about it. I will continue my diaries though..I'll just talk about something else..LOL Anyway,I have been wanting to show you guys some pictures of my tours with Incognito.I have been truly blessed,(even though I hate to be away from Jazz),to see most of the world,because of my job as a singer with this band. DJGary in Atlanta has been after me for a long time to buy a digital camera and now that I have one it goes everywhere with me...even Walmart!(Yeah I've been once since I 've been home) So here are some pictures from The Milan Blue Note,Turkey,and Russia... More to come soon.. Can't wait to see my Detroit Famz @ Chene Park next week!! Maysa

The Meeting In New York

2005-04-14T17:56:00.000-07:00

Hey everyone! Thanks for all of your beautiful responses regarding that stupid e-mail. y'all make me feel like a protected little (or older) sister!

Well the good news is that my meeting today went really well, and if all goes wonderful.......:)

Gotta keep a secret sometimes!

Love ya,

Maysa

GOD give me strength

2005-04-13T21:25:00.000-07:00

Hi Family,

Many of you are new to the site,to my music,to my life....some have read my diaries and have tried to figure me out as a whole person,which I must say cannot be done.I am a complex woman,who is 100% about love. I have never wanted to,or tried to hurt anyone in my whole life.I have only treated people the way I wanted to be treated.

The music industry has not always been very kind to me.I live a highly stressful life,as we all do,and I must honestly admit that if God would just show me another way to make a living ,I will choose it,because this business is hurting me.

You may have heard /read me complaining about the lack of support I have gotten for my records..all which have been successful because of people like you who buy my music because of my voice,songwriting style and my choice of really good songs.But be that as it may,I still have to deal with heart -breaking realities of the music business.I have paid more dues,taken more shit,(no wonder I have weight issues,because I have eaten more humble pie than humanly neccessary),and yet my core foundation,God,my family,and the support of my listeners,and a handful of friends in the business have kept me going,tried to hold me up when the world was tearing me down. I have quit at least three times a year,and I have sacrificed little bits of my spirit everytime some bull goes down.

I have been good to everyone I have come across.I have been a top notch professional,and if you hear any complaints about me,it will be from people who didnt gain some type of control over me,financially,or mentally.

Today as I prepare myself to go to New York tomorrow for a meeting that could possibly turn my whole career around for the better,I get a call from my manager,who is sad,hurt and disappointed in an email she recieved from a person who made me an offer to do a show in D.C. in September.

This offer was 500 dollars above my asking price,and everything was going along fine until,the "boss" decided to speak his mind....

I am reprinting it here,to give you an example of what my life is like and why I really wonder why I continue on in this business.I am tired of being shit on and told I aint good enough.

I am also not a stupid woman so I am deleting personal and financial information.

I just want you to see for yourself.

But know this one thing. I KNOW WHO I AM AND WHAT I AM HERE FOR.

Maybe my time is done doing it this way because I don't have live like this.I surrender to whatever God wants me to do or to be from here on out.I intend on living the rest of my life Smoothly Sailing...

--------------------------------------------------------------------------

HERE IT IS Y'ALL...(by the way..the info regarding ticket sales is false)

[Thanks for the information.

$ is way too much for Maysa in my opinion.

It states that Maysa will handle travel; hotels; etc.
- she stays in Maryland so those should not even be
factors in her pricing.

Based on the numbers, venue size, show cost, her
recent appearance, and the last four shows for Maysa
in DC; her ticket sales individually did not produce
enough to cover her stated fee + a venue cost, let
alone marketing, etc.

The best show she had in the since of ticket sales -
was headlined by ? at the ? produced
by ?. Maysa received close to $ and had a
radio song out at the time.

Therefore, to jump to $ is definitely not working
for me.

Does she have a new single/album in radio rotation?

How many in her entourage? I will reach out to
? where they rehearse if you don't know the
answer to this last question.

Finally, I really love Maysa sound & music, but she is
not worth $ all-in. And that to me is being modest
if she is not hot right now.]

Message Board

2005-02-18T10:33:00.000-08:00

Hello folks,

We are trying to resolve the messageboard issues.

They are saying that someone is reporting their newsletter as spam so they have to shut the board down.

I have sent countless emails and nothing has changed today..

maybe it will tomorrow...

See ya ,

Maysa

I couldn't sleep...it's 4:48am Friday February 4th

2005-02-04T01:52:00.000-08:00

Oh boyeeee....I'n finally getting sleepy.

I am wired up.... I've been feeling like something great is about to happen in my life.....I'm grateful for this feeling.

Thank goodness...

Alright..I'm going to sleep finally.

Nothing much.....just saying hello and some other stuff

2005-01-31T02:05:00.000-08:00

Hey y'all what's going on?

I'm getting geared up for Troy's play: A Real Nigga Show in Baltimore starting this Thursday.It runs for two consecutive weekends February 3-13.

The actors are amazing,and you will leave the theatre knowing exactly why these young actor /writers named their play in this manner.

It is highly entertaining and thought provoking.

Please join us.

For ticket prices and other details call:

The Theatre Project
(410) 539-3091
45 W Preston St
Baltimore, MD 21201

My producer and friend Rex Rideout is nominated for a Grammy Award for producing the Forever,For Always For Luther tribute CD for Verve Records!!

I was so proud to be able to vote for him since I am a member of NARAS!

I'll definitely be watching the Grammy's this year and waiting by the phone for Rex!..

In other news,I just got an email from Incognito with some interesting tour dates,one of them being the Jakarta Jazz Festival.YES! I said Jakarta. I'm very surprised it's still happening,but maybe the proceeds are going to helping the survivors of the Tsunami.

Then we are off to Spain,Germany,and back to the Milan Blue Note for 6 nights.

I was just in California recently trying to record a song for a producer on the EMI label and my cold would not let me work at all.We tried anti-biotics,cold medicines...steam baths ..everything,but my nose was in the way. So I have to find some time at the end of Feb to finish my vocal.

While I was out there,I let an opportunity slip through my fingers and I guess writing it in my diary may help me get over it.

The hotel I was staying in had an ABC Network Winter Press Day in which different televsion shows had talent and directors and producers come out to do press on their projects.(Desperate Houswives were there too!)

Well it's no secret that I have been trying to get on The Oprah Winfrey show since I was on there with Stevie Wonder(singing background) when he was promoting Jungle Fever with Spike Lee in 1991.

Well... Oprah Winfrey and Halle Berry were both in the hotel at 11:00 am doing press for their production of Their Eyes Were Watching God.(By the way,I saw it on close circuit tv in my room the night before..it is wonderful!)

So since they showed the whole daily schedule on the hotel page on TV,I saw that they were going to be in the conference rooms downstairs at 11.

I had all of my promotional materials with me,my cd's calendars,bio's..etc..and I made two of them. I talked myself into just walking up to them after they were finished,introducing myself,and handing them my cd's.I thought to myself,at least maybe Oprah would be interested in my position as RSV Awareness Spokesperson.

Well by the time 11am rolled around,I had convinced myself that I was too scared of rejection to even try,and at 11:55 am I found myself at Jerry's Deli,half eating some pancakes,and disappointed in myself for letting that chance go by.That may have changed my whole career,but what I found out about myself was that I absolutely cannot take anymore rejection in this business.I have been paying dues for nearly 14 years.

I recently have been upset at the lack of radio play my CD is getting.There was a time when certaim stations like WHUR in DC and BET would play me all day long and now I never hear myself on the radio anymore.Its so hard to take ,I can't even explain it to you. It feels like someone out there is making it their mission to block me from all avenues of success with my music.If y'all only knew how many times doors have been slammed in my face even with my success with Incognito,and all the critcial acclaim of my music.

I emailed The Tom Joyner Show,(Smooth Sailing is perfect for promotion of his cruise..plus you can line dance to it) I called Cathy Hughes at Radio One,trying to get some kind of support from Black owned sources,but I know that its a far bigger ax to grind than just me calling.I know how radio works now,and until I sign with another label,I will always be in this position.(One thing I did learn is that if alot of people keep calling into stations they will play it if they add it to the playlist)....

But I can honestly say that I am TIRED. I love making music,I love singing live,I love doing interviews,and promotions,but this uphill battle is wearing me down and I have exhausted all of my energy.

That's depressing to say the least,even though I am looking at a few record deal offers,which is positive.At least people still want to hire me to sing.

I don't know what else to do but lean on God a little more each day and pray that he inspires someone down here to help me not let my music just die out without getting the exposure it deserves.

I resolved to stop cussing this year.I'm doing okay I guess.In this diary at least..I have slipped up in real life! LOL

I'm already listening to songs for the new cd..I haven't been inspired to write anything as of yet,but it will come soon.

Also,I am continuing my work with RSV Awareness..I just did a pre interview for a Discovery Health Channel show called Amazing Births..!

The Public Service Announcement that I did with Jazz and my band has been shown to 140 million people already.CNN added it and NBC will start showing it soon. Out of The Blue is featured throughout the PSA which is really cool.That could start the sales of OOTB up again.

So there is some good news...but I just want to see the fruit of my labor..you know what I mean.

Thanks to you guys being so supportive,I'm at least still in the game.

And if there are some people hell bent against me seeing any further success in my career can just kiss my bumper! No weapon formed against me shall prosper. I have been a faithful servant of my God and I know that things will change for the betterment of my life and my family's lives.I know that if I keep making positive music,everything is gonna be alright.

I'm okay..thanks for listening.

(and God ,please send me my husband.Amen) :)

Love ya...

Maysa

A REAL NIGGA SHOW COMING SOON! FEBRUARY 3-13,2005

2005-01-02T20:44:00.000-08:00

Merry Christmas,Happy Holidays,Happy New Year

2004-12-24T16:32:00.000-08:00

Hiya everyone...

I know you may be running around doing last minute shopping,or just chillin',and I wanted to thank everyone for their support of my career this year.2004 was a pretty cool year for me and my family and I feel truly blessed and grateful.

We almost finished the kitchen remodel in time for Christmas dinner,but the refrigerator and sink, dishwasher, island and countertops are all we have to get now.

But my mom,the miracle worker,fixed a whole Thanksgiving dinner with a microwave,convection oven! We have a fridge downstairs and a big sink in the laundry room,so she was able to do her thang!

I'm glad to be home for Christmas...usually we are in Japan.

Oh Japan..whoa...was that was a trip and a half!

41 shows in a row(incl. the Blue Note in Italy),and gosh my throat hurts!

When we got to Osaka,I was talking mess in the car all the way to the hotel,but I started having an anxiety attack when we got close...I felt faint,and Bluey and Sarah were keeping their eyes on me to see how I was gonna act after 5 years...

Soooooo..when I walk into the lobby,I felt weak ,and I got my key and took deep breaths all the way up to my room.Of course to freak me out a little more..the room was exactly like the room I had when I came to get Jazz.

I remembered the crib they had set up in the corner,and the view was the same.

I actually was feeling okay until Sarah came to my room.I hadn't cried yet but she started BAWLING!! LOL...I was like dag Sarah I was okay until you came in here!

But I understood what she was feeling because Sarah helped me get out of that room 5 years ago when I had to leave my newborn,premature baby in a foreign country,and I was on the phonne telling her,in a cloud of instability and tears,that I CAN'T LEAVE HIM HERE ALONE!!

But Sarah made me write a list to follow because at that point I couldn't remember how to get out of that room.I didn't know how to get from my room to the airport,and she made me write a list something like this....

1.Pack your clothes

2.Take a bath

3.Get dressed

4.Call the bell captain to get your bags

5.Make sure you don't leave anything

6.Go downstairs

7.Pay your room bill

8.Get in the cab

Go home Maysa

I love Sarah Brown.She is one of the best friends I've ever had in my life.

When Jazz sees her he lights up.He knows.

Well...on a lighter note! LOLOLOL....

I am feeling good y'all! The 25th Anniversary Concert in London was off the chain! Beautiful history was made that night.I am so proud of Bluey...I love this picture of us....

Anyway,It was a joy to sing on stage with Jocelyn Brown! She is AWESOME! A beautiful person and she is always so sweet to me.

Seeing so many musicians I haven't seen like Fayyaz,Randy,Graham ,Chris Ballin..oh my goodness his voice just rings through my spirit!

It was wonderful seeing my American friends..Harron,Michael,Joel... (Joel where did you go?I came out to bring you some AAA passes brother but you had disappeared! And I tried to give you signals while I was on stage!LOL)

I have some pictures to add,but the link to add them isn't working tonight...I'll figure it out soon..

Y'all be safe,I love you,have a great holiday,and remember....

CHOOSE HAPPINESS,AND HAPPINESS WILL CHOOSE YOU!!!

TRY IT! IT WORKS!!!!!!

All I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS IS A HUSBAND....R rated diary..For Entertainment Purposes only..

2004-11-07T18:32:00.000-08:00

Hey y'all..This is a I Want My Husband diary,so if you don't want to read this or you are under 16,go here.....http://www.nickjr.com..LOL...

Well ...I am doing some housework tonight since I won't be home for a while after Tuesday.My schedule is so crazy,but I don't mind too much other than the fact I'll be away from my family.That's the hard part about life on the road.But I gotta work and I want to work ,so off to work I go.We are remodeling the house and the new kitchen is coming together nicely.It should be all done when I get home..Yippee...
I'm looking forward to SOB's on Wednesday.I haven't done my own show in New York in over 5 years.I think SOB's was the last place I did a show there.

I started to tell you about a man I met,but that whole thing had to be squashed for many reasons,I can't really get into it right now..too much confusion,and one thing I know,is that love should be easy even at the lust stage..lol...Not confusing and a guess as to what is happening from one minute to the next...so I'm sorry for even saying anything,but I was really feeling him that night,and you know how emotional I am.I just wanted to share...I haven't really written too much about my "missing husband" in the last year,because I had kind of given up on finding him.For a while,I thought I was content not having anyone in my life,but ever since I really started losing weight again,(I've lost 16 pounds since September),it seems that with every pound I lose, I gain 5 pounds of confidence,and my hormone levels must be jumping!! oooohh.Maysa is on FIRE!!

Plus I am really KNOWING what I want from a relationship now.
I know that all the little dumb games that used to go on in the past are not welcome in my psyche anymore.I have no tolerance for stupid shit,so whoever he is,I pray he is mature and knows what he wants also...
I was having a chat with one of my friends today and I was telling her that I will never again,I don't care how sexy,charming or sweet a man is to me,I will never let another man make me deny my instincts again.

I am refering to an old boyfriend who was cheating on me,but told me I was crazy,insane,trippin,and delusional,when he knew full well he was seeing someone else.What I was trying to explain to her is that when a person will lie to the point that he/she makes you deny your instincts,knowing full well that they are lying..they are to me committing an act of evilness.In my humble opinion,one of our most beautiful human connections to GOD or the Universe or The Source ,is our instincts.I believe that The Source speaks to us and guides us all day and all night,and when someone tells you that you are wrong for believing what you feel inside,or tells you to believe the lie they are telling you and not the truth you know is reality,then THAT TO ME IS EVIL. I can understand some circumstances that warrant a small untruth,but when a person is constantly asking you to tell them the truth and you tell them they are crazy instead,there's something wrong with that.

I just said all of that because I felt someone needed to hear it..

I don't really want to talk about that...I really want to talk about that sexy ass man I saw at the paint store. tonight.Y'all he was so fine I wanted to scream. I actually bought some paint I don't even need right now just to look at him.He is so masculine and handsome...he was working so hard I thought I would melt.Yeah, hardworking men turn me on.Men who are focused make me turn into jello in their presence.

(Speaking of hardworking men,The Baltimore Ravens( I'm watching the game against Cleveland) are looking yummy in those Black uniforms....ohh lalala....LOL.. What the heck am I doing on this computer..I should be at the game.Hummm..68,000 people,most of them men!! What the heck? LOL)

Anyway,the paint shop guy may not be the one and/or he might be one of those men who may try to make me deny my instincts one day,but damn if I don't want too see for myself!!!Cause, good golly miss molly,the brother had it going on..WHEW!! ....be still my aching heart.

I just know now,that if I feel like something is going on,i'll just talk to the man about it..and if he lies and I find out he was lying,I'll just let him go...that's why I believe that people should always be self-reliant in relationships,so that no one is dependent on someone financially so that if the shit hits the fan you don't have to put up with bull because you can't take care of yourself...(I know it's hard out here with two salaries,let alone one,it's a constant struggle) ...both my mommy and daddy taught me that at an early age. Which is why my booty is off to work next week. ( I am grateful for the work Lord,thank you Father).

So anyway...if I wasn't such a chicken,I would have said something to that paint man,(yes, I am still talking about him)at least to find out if he is married or has a girlfriend,but I am so old school,I couldn't get up the nerve to rap to the man...LOL. Maybe I'll give my confidence level time to grow more and take my tail back up there and speak my mind.:) I am too damn near 40 years old to be like this.Shouldn't I at least be able to flirt? I feel like I'm still 16 years old,scared to talk to a man...Boy oh boy..Well I did make him look for a paint color they didnt even sell..I knew that I saw that color in Lowe's..hahahaha..I just wanted to speak to him. He knew the color wasn't there,but he tried to make up the color for me..isn't that sweet?!!LOL

Next time I'm gonna ask him if they have Butterball Turkey Brown...HAHAHA.That should take a while to mix up....LOL..(Y'all probably think I'm crazy by now)...

You know what?One thing I have learned about myself is that I want to be able to choose my man.All of my relationships have been with men who have chosen me.Is that deep or what?But maybe my husband probably has been in front of my face,but may be too scared to say anything to me.(if that is the case...MAN UP HONEY,SHOULDERS BACK, HEAD UP TALL ,AND STEP TO ME RIGHT NOW! DON'T BE SCARED!!) LOLOLOL...

But until then,I guess I will be buying alot of paint! Anybody need some paint??I'll get some for you... LOL LOL.....Shoot, I'mma paint every room in this house!!! Two times! HE IS THAT FINE.MAKE ME WANT TO LOSE MY MIND!! LOL

It must be my season for new men in my life,I have been waiting so long for the "right" one to enter my world and sweep me off myfeet.This summer,I met quite a few ,but nothing has developed from these meetings yet.
My ex-boyfriend told me that he sees a different kind of light illuminating from my spirit..I guess my mating call is in hyperdrive!
Cause I AM READY!!! I know that I may still be in fantasy mode regarding falling in love and having a man LOVE ME.Somebody told me this summer "DONT BELIEVE THE HYPE ,STAY SINGLE"..but I want some muscles to hold on to ya know what I mean? I'm a little tired of my pillow holding me at night.Ladies,can I get an Amen?I still want the fairy tale.At least for as long as I can have it.

I really want to feel that sensation again,but for now, I'll just have to hold on to my dreams as long as I can.What other choice do I have.( Naw,no thanks...with all due respect...naw..LOL)

Don't worry ya'll.Please don't send me no poor Maysa,'she don't have a man yet,just stop looking and he will arrive' e-mails, I am not desperate,I am in ATTRACTION MODE.I am feeling this man more than I ever have before ,so I know he's close,I'm just speaking him into existence...ya dig? I ain't sad ,I am happy at the thought of him and me..us...wow...imagine me running around the back yard with my hands in the air..screaming .."my husband is coming my husband is coming!"That's how excited I am!
HAHAHAHAHAHA....whooo....I guess I have talked enough shit tonight...

For Japan,I have packed all of my movies and exercise DVD's,my Gamecube,my laptop,books,My Sims 2 game....I should not get bored during the day in Japan,or at night when I can't sleep.Japan is a great country,but the television in the hotels is terrible.Only English is CNN or Headline news ALL DAY AND NIGHT.Sometimes you get lucky and see some old boring ass American movie with Japanese subtitles.."Lost in Translation "captured the way I feel in Japan perfectly.I love that movie..

Milan should be fun next weekend.I haven't been to Italy in a while so I may treat myself to some Spaghetti Carbonara!! YUMMMM!! My favorite Italian food next to Chicken Parmesean...

Then I come back home to do the March of Dimes' Prematurity Month kickoff...I was told that Gelman ,the producer from Regis and Kelly is going to be there,and someone from the show Charmed...
The info on that is on the touring page...

Well you all,I guess thats all fornow..Oh ! Jazzie started preshcool this week and he loves it! The first day was a bit of a challenge since he wasn't used to getting up so early,so once we get him on a schedule he'll be okay...
My baby is growing up y'all! I am so proud of him..I have to admit though,I am a little nervous about going back to Osaka.Even though I am not pregnant this time (THANK GOD!),I still feel weird about it...Just the idea of returing to the same hotel,the same stage,whoo boy...I'm getting chills.I hopeI don't have an anxiety attack when we get there!

I'll be speaking to y'all from the road!!
Be Blessed and CHOOSE HAPPINESS AND HAPPINESS WILL CHOOSE YOU.TRY IT....It really does work.
I love ya.
Maysa

THE REVENGE OF THE UNDERGROUND DIVAS

2004-11-02T20:04:00.000-08:00

Hey cuzzinz...

I am proud to present some really cool pictures of the photo session after the Madison Square Garden gig...

All night long, photographers were asking me and Ledisi and Lalah to take pictures together..that's how I knew that the "Divas" shows are going to be off the hook!

And we were all so thrilled to take a picture with one of THE GRAND DIVA'S..PATTI LABELLE!!!!

She told the three of us that we were THE FUTURE and that we would carry the torch of real singers.... That was unreal!

So PATTI,GLADYS,CHAKA,PHYLLIS,....AND THE LIST GOES ON...

THE UNDERGROUND DIVAS ARE ON THE WAY,TO PAY TRIBUTE AND SHOW LOVE TO THE REAL SINGER/SONGWRITERS/MUSICIANS OF THE WORLD.......

I HAVE MORE TO SAY BUT NEED TO CLEAN UP MY BEDROOM...

BE BACK LATER..

DID YOU VOTE? I DID!

Maysa and Ledisi Recording SCAT WORLD-Photo by Will Downing

2004-09-08T20:33:00.000-07:00

Hey cuzzinz....

Here is a picture of me and Ledisi scatting a way in the studio recording Scat World for my new CD Smooth Sailing....

Will Downing co- produced(and sang on the song) along with Rex Rideout

Photo by Will Downing

My First PSA

2004-08-23T12:30:00.000-07:00

Hey y'all,

Jazz and I filmed a national public service announcement sponsored by the March of Dimes,for the RSV Awareness Campaign...

Here are some pictures!

Photos by

Alan B. Chebot
Executive Producer/Director
Parallax Productions, Inc

Komondor

2004-08-16T19:05:00.000-07:00

Hey cuzzinz'

I'm looking for a puppy.I want a Komondor....I love how they look and I think Jazz is ready to help take care of a dog....

If you know of any breeders in the Baltimore/Washington area please let me know...

Thanks..

Maysa

2004-08-16T07:32:00.000-07:00

Hey y'all..should I be afraid because Anita Baker's Cd is coming out in September ??
Some folks are suggesting that Lalah and I may be in trouble... boo hoo....

"shaking in my boots!" lol

Shoot,there's room for everybody!

I'm gonna buy Anita Baker's record too...I love her!!!

what a pain..I hate to be rushed!!

2004-08-16T06:47:00.000-07:00

Hey y'all...
I'm stressed today because the record company rushed me and Rex to get the credits and track listing to them to send to the printer....And about 2 am this morning, I discovered the track listing is wrong on the one they have,and some producer info is missing...a name is spelled wrong...oh woe is me!!!

I hope they didn't print the cover yet!!
:'(

Smooth Sailing

2004-08-15T21:01:00.000-07:00

Hey Family....

Here are some pictures from the photo session,and.....

Here is the track listing from Smooth Sailing....

1.Hypnotic Love

2.Smooth Sailing

3.Soul Child

4.Scat World

5.Where Do You Go?

6.So Very Hot

7.All Day Long

8.It's Time For Love

9.Where Have You Been?

10.One More Chance

11.Unexpectedly

Samples will be coming soon...

Love ya..

Maysa