Sorry Famz.....

  I'm home,but I have been really sick..
my body shut down on me when I got back from Russia..my pressure went up (155/107),I had pains in my chest,paramedics came to my house and did an EKG..which was normal,so my doctor made me get a CT Scan to rule out a blood clot.
That was a scary experience..they had to give me an IV drip to shoot dye in my veins for a contrast CT Scan...so finally,after a few agonizing days,I have and a clean bill of health..my doctor said that I was suffering from stress and exhaustion.   He also said that I have been very lucky to retain the level of health that I have had with the added extra weight. I know I have been a healthy person my whole life,and if I don't do something,my health will go down if I don't get this weight off.   This weight feels like Satan on my back. Something will be done.Now.This is the last time I will ever mention my weight until I have done something about it. I will continue my diaries though..I'll just talk about something else..LOL   Anyway,I have been wanting to show you guys some pictures of my tours with Incognito.I have been truly blessed,(even though I hate to be away from Jazz),to see most of the world,because of my job as a singer with this band. DJGary in Atlanta has been after me for a long time to buy a digital camera and now that I have one it goes everywhere with me...even Walmart!(Yeah I've been once since I 've been home)   So here are some pictures from The Milan Blue Note,Turkey,and Russia...   More to come soon.. Can't wait to see my Detroit Famz @ Chene Park next week!!   Maysa

The Meeting In New York

Hey everyone! Thanks for all of your beautiful responses regarding that stupid e-mail. y'all make me feel like a protected little (or older) sister!

Well the good news is that my meeting today went really well, and if all goes wonderful.......:)

Gotta keep a secret sometimes!

 

Love ya,

Maysa

GOD give me strength

Hi Family,

Many of you are new to the site,to my music,to my life....some have read my diaries and have tried to figure me out as a whole person,which I must say cannot be done.I am a complex woman,who is 100% about love. I have never wanted to,or tried to hurt anyone in my whole life.I have only treated people the way I wanted to be treated.

The music industry has not always been very kind to me.I live a highly stressful life,as we all do,and I must honestly admit that if God would just show me another way to make a living ,I will choose it,because this business is hurting me.

You may have heard /read me complaining about the lack of support I have gotten for my records..all which have been successful because of people like you who buy my music because of my voice,songwriting style and my choice of really good songs.But be that as it may,I still have to deal with heart -breaking realities of the music business.I have paid more dues,taken more shit,(no wonder I have weight issues,because I have eaten more humble pie than humanly neccessary),and yet my core foundation,God,my family,and the support of my listeners,and a handful of friends in the business have kept me going,tried to hold me up when the world was tearing me  down. I have quit at least three times a year,and I have sacrificed little bits of my spirit everytime some bull goes down.

I have been good to everyone I have come across.I have been a top notch professional,and if you hear any complaints about me,it will be from people who didnt gain some type of control over me,financially,or mentally.

Today as I prepare myself to go to New York tomorrow for a meeting that could possibly turn my whole career around for the better,I get a call from my manager,who is sad,hurt and disappointed in an email she recieved from a person who made me an offer to do a show in D.C. in September.

This offer was 500 dollars above my asking price,and everything was going along fine until,the "boss" decided to speak his mind....

I am reprinting it here,to give you an example of what my life is like and why I really wonder why I continue on in this business.I am tired of being shit on and told I aint good enough.

I am also not a stupid woman so I am deleting personal and financial information.

I just want you to see for yourself.

But know this one thing. I KNOW WHO I AM AND WHAT I AM HERE FOR.

Maybe my time is done doing it this way because I don't have live like this.I surrender to whatever God wants me to do or to be from here on out.I intend on living the rest of my life Smoothly Sailing...

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HERE IT IS Y'ALL...(by the way..the info regarding ticket sales is false)

[Thanks  for the information.

$ is way too much for Maysa in my opinion.

It states that Maysa will handle travel; hotels; etc.
- she stays in Maryland so those should not even be
factors in her pricing.

Based on the numbers, venue size, show cost, her
recent appearance, and the last four shows for Maysa
in DC; her ticket sales individually did not produce
enough to cover her stated fee + a venue cost, let
alone marketing, etc.

The best show she had in the since of ticket sales -
was headlined by ? at the ? produced
by ?. Maysa received close to $ and had a
radio song out at the time.

Therefore, to jump to $ is definitely not working
for me.

Does she have a new single/album in radio rotation?

How many in her entourage?  I will reach out to
? where they rehearse if you don't know the
answer to this last question.

Finally, I really love Maysa sound & music, but she is
not worth $ all-in. And that to me is being modest
if she is not hot right now.]

 

Message Board

Hello folks,

We are trying to resolve the messageboard issues.

They are saying that someone is reporting their newsletter as spam so they have to shut the board down.

I have sent countless emails and nothing has changed today..

maybe it will tomorrow...

See ya ,

Maysa

I couldn't sleep...it's 4:48am Friday February 4th

Oh boyeeee....I'n finally getting sleepy.

I am wired up.... I've been feeling like something great is about to happen in my life.....I'm grateful for this feeling.

Thank goodness...

Alright..I'm going to sleep finally.

 

Nothing much.....just saying hello and some other stuff

Hey y'all what's going on?

I'm getting geared up for Troy's play: A Real Nigga Show in Baltimore starting this Thursday.It runs for two consecutive weekends February 3-13.

The actors are amazing,and you will leave the theatre knowing exactly why these young actor /writers named their play in this manner.

It is highly entertaining and thought provoking.

Please join us.

For ticket prices and other details call:

The Theatre Project
(410) 539-3091
45 W Preston St
Baltimore, MD 21201

My producer and friend Rex Rideout is nominated for a Grammy Award for producing the Forever,For Always For Luther tribute CD for Verve Records!!

I was so proud to be able to vote for him since I am a member of  NARAS!

I'll definitely be watching the Grammy's this year and waiting by the phone for Rex!..

In other news,I just got an email from Incognito with some interesting tour dates,one of them being the Jakarta Jazz Festival.YES! I said Jakarta. I'm very surprised it's still happening,but maybe the proceeds are going to helping the survivors of the Tsunami.

Then we are off to Spain,Germany,and back to the Milan Blue Note for 6 nights.

I was just in California recently trying to record a song for a producer on the EMI label and my cold would not let me work at all.We tried anti-biotics,cold medicines...steam baths ..everything,but my nose was in the way. So I have to find some time at the end of Feb to finish my vocal.

While I was out there,I let an opportunity slip through my fingers and I guess writing it in my diary may help me get over it.

The hotel I was staying in had an ABC Network Winter Press Day in which different televsion shows had talent and directors and producers come out to do press on their projects.(Desperate Houswives were there too!)

Well it's no secret that I have been trying to get on The Oprah Winfrey show since I was on there with Stevie Wonder(singing background) when he was promoting Jungle Fever with Spike Lee in 1991.

Well... Oprah Winfrey and Halle Berry were both in the hotel at 11:00 am doing press for their production of Their Eyes Were Watching God.(By the way,I saw it on close circuit tv in my room the night before..it is wonderful!)

So since they showed the whole daily schedule on the hotel page on TV,I saw that they were going to be in the conference rooms downstairs at 11.

I had all of my promotional materials with me,my cd's calendars,bio's..etc..and I made two of them. I talked myself into just walking up to them after they were finished,introducing myself,and handing them my cd's.I thought  to myself,at least maybe Oprah would be interested in my position as RSV Awareness Spokesperson.

Well by the time 11am rolled around,I had convinced myself that I was too scared of rejection to even try,and at 11:55 am I found myself at Jerry's Deli,half eating some pancakes,and disappointed in myself for letting that chance go by.That may have changed my whole career,but what I found out about myself was that I absolutely cannot take anymore rejection in this business.I have been paying dues for nearly 14 years.

I recently have been upset at the lack of radio play my CD is getting.There was a time when certaim stations like WHUR in DC and BET would play me all day long and now I never hear myself on the radio anymore.Its so hard to take ,I can't even explain it to you. It feels like someone out there is making it their mission to block me from all avenues of success with my music.If y'all only knew how many times doors have been slammed in my face even with my success with Incognito,and all the critcial acclaim of my music.

I emailed The Tom Joyner Show,(Smooth Sailing is perfect for promotion of his cruise..plus you can line dance to it) I called Cathy Hughes at Radio One,trying to get some kind of support from Black owned sources,but I know that its a far bigger ax to grind than just me calling.I know how radio works now,and until I sign with another label,I  will always be in this position.(One thing I did learn is that if alot of people keep calling into stations they will play it if they add it to the playlist)....

But I can honestly say that I am TIRED. I love making music,I love singing live,I love doing interviews,and promotions,but this uphill battle is wearing me down and I have exhausted all of my energy.

That's depressing to say the least,even though I am looking at a few record deal offers,which is positive.At least people still want to hire me to sing.

I don't know what else to do but lean on God a little more each day and pray that he inspires someone down here to help me not let my music just die out without getting the exposure it deserves.

I resolved to stop cussing this year.I'm doing okay I guess.In this diary at least..I have slipped up in real life! LOL

I'm already listening to songs for the new cd..I haven't been inspired to write anything as of yet,but it will come soon.

Also,I am continuing my work with RSV Awareness..I just did a pre interview for a Discovery Health Channel show called Amazing Births..!

The Public Service Announcement that I did with Jazz and my band has been shown to 140 million people already.CNN added it and NBC will start showing it soon. Out of The Blue is featured throughout the PSA which is really cool.That could start the sales of OOTB up again.

So there is some good news...but I just want to see the fruit of my labor..you know what I mean.

Thanks to you guys being so supportive,I'm at least still in the game.

And if there are some people hell bent against me seeing any further success in my career can just kiss my bumper! No weapon formed against me shall prosper. I have been a faithful servant of my God and I know that things will change for the betterment of my life and my family's lives.I know that if I keep making positive music,everything is gonna be alright.

I'm okay..thanks for listening.

(and God ,please send me my husband.Amen) :)

Love ya...

Maysa

A REAL NIGGA SHOW COMING SOON! FEBRUARY 3-13,2005